Love on his poker table

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I didnt knoW

love was just a game you were playing.

Cards on the table,

I thought u were showing hearts

but that turned out to be the inception of an illusion.

I was playing with the master of discretion;

I put my heart on your poker table

with the stakes set high,

my world standing on its head

I gambled my fate away

I swear i was winning!

then you showed your cards

Four freaking fours!

grandiosity,lies,indifference and cruelty

And stole the show;

My heart was yours,

You dumped it in your whiskey ,

Raised your glass to me

And said- good game girl

All kinds of broken

This fight has to end,

this battle that I fight,

Locked in your arms every night

The tug of war

between resolve and desire

your gaze hovering on my closed lids

like a vulture waiting for its prey,

waiting for me to drop my guard

and i will my heart ,

to calm its thundering beats

Then in the sweet haze of sleep

I bask in the warmth of your breath

And mist of your lips

This fight has to end

Cowardice is not victory

Love and life ,not dichotomy

How can I keep myself from dreaming?

How long can I lie in your arms,

Not cracking a vertebrae,

Unyielding?

As much as I love my heart

Forgive me,for i love adventures more

I would rather give away my heart

Over and over again

Untill its all kinds of broken

And cheer for the one,

Who lands the deadliest blow

I would rather bury its remains

with an eulogy of loving memories,

Streaming tears,

Proud pomp and show

Than trap my poor heart in a cage

for the rest of its days

And cut off its wings

What if it gives up hope

And stops fluttering?

Scratches

I have drunk desire before
But nothing like the fire in my bones
Conflagrant within,
At your touch
I see it mirrored in your eyes,
Smoldering topaz,
Burning it to coal

Grunts and growls
Moans and screams
We are animals,hunting ;
You are preying on me
And I am drinking you in
High on the creamy manna
Ambrosia couldn’t taste better than this

I know now why they call it destruction
When two planets crash,
When you jounce into me
I can see colliding stars
Exploding senses
Like its the end of the world

Then the waves wash over and away
And I am drained of words
I close my eyes
Unwilling to watch you leave
Make no noise,
Disappear like a dream
I could believe,
It happened in my head
But you left scratches all over my skin

Aphrodite and The lady ~~~collab 1

Oh Aphrodite! behold
The stream of blood from my eyes
The remorseful bleed of lost love
Half my existence a cold pained effort
The effort to live a dream
A dream filled with lust
Lust with agitation
Building castles of our exploding passion
His firm hands stroking my softness
His bare eyes stripping my skin
My life,ingrained in falsehood
Will this thirst be satiated?
Life ends when it comes full a circle
Will mine ever be whole?

           Look how selene fights darkness
           untill she reigns the night
           in all her glory;
           no tale is left incomplete
           Nor will yours be
           Mould your dreams
           with constancy
            Untill you blurr the contour
           And let it flow and flood reality
           There is no remorse in love
           Love is never lost
           Under the gaze of my eyes
           It only evaporates off
           Scalded skin
           And rains down as anodyne
           Bleed you may,
           Untill purged of falsehood
           But you shall find the truth
          Greater than the doctrine
          Of divine universe
          In the quiddity of your soul’s mate

           
The goddess of love
My guardian spirit
My love is as deep as your promise
And so it shall stay as long as you
Its none but you,
who withstands the sands of time
Your words promise to me existence
And I will let them be my antidote
You announce ,
there is no remorse in love
And perhaps there is not
For pain is a master illusionist
And so I am as good as he ;
Who is sans eyes or ears
And sans all sense
Selene;
You cite her strength
But her shine is assumed
And so her struggle, fruitless
For she lives a borrowed life
The night is alluring,angelic
But it brings a bitter sweet joy home
The beauty against the pain
I drink it like venom:
the venom my elixir
And joy it gives me
A joy I cant comprehend
Perhaps my conscious
has tamed the pain
Or the pain tamed my conscious,
Made me its own
We are two wholes fused into one
Incomplete within
But for now,i am pain’s possession
And the pain-my mate
               

              Alas! I cant relieve you of pain
              for I have heard whispers
              of angels in my abode;
              pain is the price humans pay
              For the weight they bear
             On the bosom of gaia
              But I am exultant
              That the pain my sting inflicts
               Is the sweetest of all
              And thus you lust for it
              Be it venom,you call it elixir
              Pain and love
         Are the equipose of your existence
            There is no pain without love,
            No pain sans soul
             For your soul
            Is the root of your humanity
           And thus,all the suffering
           Tell me child,
           Would you give up your soul?
            

Ribbons

The ribbons of grass
Paving a pathway painted with temptations;
I can feel my heart’s fool,
Eager to tread upon the lush greenery
But I know the verdure
is too fragile to endure
And will wilt at the touch of snow
I can see the sporadic stretches of gravel ahead,
I know its the kind of pain I lust for
Dangerously tempting ribbons of bondage
But I am not ready to go where they lead
So I look away and swallow the taste of my greed